A Poem for Easter

We give thanks for the night,

Because in the night

The seeds of hope were planted.

Whilst we couldn’t see,

You were there,

Accompanying us through pain,

Planting life in the barren places.

We give thanks for the night.

 

Let the morning bring light. 

Light that pours into our eyes

And reaches our souls.

Light that wakens the seeds of hope.

Beckons them to push their way through the soil

And break the surface.

 

Let the morning bring life.

Life that warms and wakens us,

That seeps into our bones

Renews and invigorates.

Life that expands inside us

And lifts our gaze.

 

Let the morning bring love.

Love that reaches out,

Builds bridges and connects.

Embraces.

Love that reaches down

And roots us to the earth.

 

 We give thanks for the night.

But let the morning come.

With its nourishing light;

With its tangling life.

Let love be born in us again,

Because the morning is here.

The morning is here.

 

The Blessing of the Mist

Let the mist descend,

And bring its blessing:

Muffling the noise of the world,

Stilling the voices echoing in my head.

 

Let the mist descend,

With its gift of quiet calm:

Softening the hard edges.

Allowing the doubt.

 

Let the mist descend,

So that my next step engages faith

and fosters trust.

Sense not certainty.

 

Let the mist descend,

And in its mingling

Let me step into the unknowing

And find oneness in its blessing:

The blessing of the mist.

 

Sermon: Mark 1:9-15

Theme: The Beginning of Jesus’ Ministry

This talk is from February 2021.  Do you remember that time?  In the UK we were in our second lock-down of the Covid Pandemic.  It was not an easy time and we were not meeting as a church – this talk was for an on-line service.  There is still so much pain in the world: we still live in confusing and distressing times.  This short passage from Mark tells us about the beginnings of Jesus’ ministry with the encouragement to ‘change our minds’.  This is not something that happens quickly for most of us.  Hopefully these words can come as an encouragement and give us hope: we have not been abandoned; Love still calls us.

The passage is within the talk but can also be found by following this link:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Mark%201:9-15&version=NIV

This reading from Mark is very short, and yet what happens in it is very significant.  In a sense it feels like Mark wants to rush on to tell us all about Jesus’ ministry – he is in a hurry to get to the action – but before he can start that properly he needs to mention these three things: Jesus’ baptism; his temptation in the desert; and the first words of his ministry.

So, a few observations:

Verses 9, 10 and 11: In those days Jesus came from Nazareth of Galilee and was baptised by John in the Jordan.  And just as he was coming up out of the water, he saw the heavens torn apart and the Spirit descending like a dove on him.  And a voice came from heaven, ‘You are my son, the beloved; with you I am well pleased.’

If we read the verses just before this we find that John is talking about Jesus, describing him as the one who will baptise with the Holy Spirit.  But Jesus doesn’t come to John saying, ‘that’s me – I’m the one you’ve been waiting for’.  He comes to John in humility and obedience.  He submits himself to John’s baptism which is not in the temple but out in the wilderness.  He does not go to the religious authorities but to John with his message of repentance for the forgiveness of sins.  In the Message version of the Bible, John’s message is described as ‘a message of life-change that leads to the forgiveness of sins’.  The word repentance carries some quite heavy baggage with it I think.  The original word that was used was ‘metenoia’ which literally means a change of mind.  John’s message was calling people to ‘change their minds’, change the way they were seeing things, to turn around and see the whole picture.  It was this transformation and renewal of their thinking that would lead to the forgiveness of sins.  It is this that Jesus re-aligns himself with (the word religion literally means to ‘re-align’) and God was pleased with him and opens up the heavens and speaks to him.

Verses 12 and 13 cover 40 days of Jesus’s life – 40 very important days.  In the Message version of the Bible they say: At once, this same spirit pushed Jesus out into the wild.  For forty wilderness days and nights he was tested by Satan.  Wild animals were his companions, and angels took care of him.

It is worth noting straight away that it is the same spirit that falls on Jesus as a dove as he is baptised, that leads him into the desert or the wilderness.  When we are in the deserts of our lives it is easy to think that God has abandoned us.  God does not abandon us, and sometimes it is God’s spirit leading us into those desert times.  These 40 days, covered in these two short verses in Mark, were surely a critical time for Jesus.  A time of testing, yes, but also a time of learning.  Note that Mark mentions three things about Jesus’s time in the wilderness: he was tested by Satan, he found companionship with the wild animals and the angels took care of him.  Jesus entered the silence of the wilderness and, though he was tempted by Satan, he also found God there – through creation and through the care of angels.

We are in ‘desert days’ at the moment and many of us are taking solace in nature – recognising God in his creation.  I am sure that we are also being tempted – distracted by things that make us fearful, that bring out our anger and hatred, things that numb our love and bring out our selfishness and greed. But GOD IS WITH US – through his creation, in his creatures, and through angels if we will only let them minister to us. 

Through submitting to being baptised by John, Jesus ‘changed his mind’: he allowed himself to be transformed and blessed, enabling him to find companionship and angels in the wilderness.

The last two verses of our reading, 14 and 15: Now after John was arrested, Jesus came to Galilee proclaiming the good news of God, and saying “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God has come near; repent, and believe the good news.”  Or in the Message version of the Bible: “Time’s up! God’s kingdom is here.  Change your life and believe the Message.”

After those 40 days in the wilderness Jesus’ message is the same as John’s – metanoia – change the way you are thinking, turn around and see in a new way, because the kingdom of God has come near, or is here (depending on the translation you are using!) 

To know Christ is to know that God’s kingdom is here, now.  It is among us and within us.  This is the precious gift we have been given – a gift which is not given to us to cling onto but to share, and in sharing it to let it grow.

It takes a ‘change of mind’ to see this – a transformation – which is not a one-time thing but a gradual awakening, punctuated with euphoric glimpses of ‘heaven’.  Heaven is already here, and the angels already attend to us.  Let us pray that in our on-going desert days we can open ourselves up to the companionship of the natural world and all its creatures, the care of angels – however you see that manifested – and the love that is our God.

God bless you.

 

Musing #7: God as a slippery fish

I have an image of God in my head as a slippery fish. Let me try to explain! I believe that God is mystery and beyond our comprehension – our words and our thoughts will never capture who God is.  But words are what we have.  So, in our human-ness and our desire to understand we try to explain God: we pull him into our perception and, in so doing, we fail to see who he really is.

I’ve never held a fish that is still alive but, in my head, I see a fish thrashing around as I try desperately to hold onto it.  Until I realise that if I continue to hold onto this beautiful creature, it will die.  I will have the fish, but it will have lost its life.  My experience of God is that when I hold onto him too tightly – when I think I have understood and can explain God – he ‘dies’.  God becomes something else – a set of beliefs and rules - and is no longer alive.  I need to hold on to God lightly and let him slip out of my hands.  The thing with God is that we will never fully understand him.  The point is to keep seeking.

Free from our hands God, the fish, slips back into the water.  Water that spreads and seeps into the tightest of corners.  Water that is deep and broad and holds treasure beyond our imagining.  When God slips out of our hands he doesn’t want us to walk away: stay at the water’s edge and seek him.  As we stare into the depths we may catch a glimpse – the flick of his tail as he dances beneath the surface.  If we keep gazing, he may leap like a flash of silver to capture our attention again. 

Contemplation is in the gazing and the seeking.  Contemplation is coming to realise that God is not just the fish but the whole expanse of water.  And as I seek God I may also paddle in the shallows of his very being. Or take a deep breath and dive into him. Or feel, as I gaze, the spring of his spirit rising up in me.  God can not be held tightly and understood but he is constantly inviting us to dance with him in the waters of his spirit.

Photo by Mael Balland on Unsplash

All is Well: A Journey in Contemplation

e Love

This is where it all begins.  Growing up as a Christian I knew that love was at the centre of my faith but what I learnt often emphasised rules, obligations and beliefs.  For all the amazing words about love in the Bible, the realisation that God is love took a long time to dawn.  When I use love as the lens to read the Bible, observe the natural world and understand relationships, the world makes sense to me in a different way.  Love gives me a place to rest and a way forward, and I find it incredibly helpful to interchange the words God and Love.  When I see Love, I see God – when God is present, Love is manifest.  This is where it all begins. This is the ground that I stand on. This is what holds everything together.

What is love?  Love is a force and an energy that moves between us: in its perfection love drives out all fear: love is patient, kind and compassionate – it keeps no record of wrongs: love is what connects us.  When I ask myself what love is, I am asking myself who God is.  God is a force and an energy that moves between us: God drives out fear: God is patient, kind and compassionate – he keeps no record of wrongs: God is the force that draws us together.  God is present all the time – love is present all the time, only that sometimes we sail on unaware of this presence.  The call to contemplation is the call to slow down - to pause - and recognise the presence of love which is always accompanying us and within us.

One morning walking up to church a ‘picture’ came into my mind.  I was speaking that morning about the kingdom of God and the fact that each of us, by virtue of our existence, has a piece of God planted in us.  In my mind’s eye that piece of God inside each of us was a point of light – our individual opening to God.  As I pondered the picture it became like a dot-to-dot puzzle – if the points of light could be joined up they would create a picture of God’s Kingdom of Love. The image stayed with me and I realised that the way that we join up our points of light is through love.  When I act in love I draw a line between myself and the person I am loving.  The dot-to-dot puzzle is transformed into a web of light which grows and expands with each loving action, word, thought and prayer.  A picture of the creation of God’s kingdom of love.  I am not unique in having been given a picture like this. This force of Love, which some of us call God, wants to communicate with us and encourage us to live in line with love and create a beauty. 

Love is the true connector.  If we let Love do her work she will connect us deeply and widely, with people we find difficult; people we have never met; creatures and plants; the very earth.  That is Love’s work.

Think of someone that you find difficult.  It could be a neighbour, a colleague, a boss or a leader, someone at your church.  This person may be difficult in different ways.  Maybe you can not tolerate their political or religious beliefs; maybe they have been unkind to you; maybe you find them irritating or boring.  For a moment put that hurt or irritation out of your mind and think about the love that person has for someone in their life: their partner; their parents; their children; their friends.  That love they have is real – as real as the love you have for your partner; your parents; your children; your friends. I remember having this realisation when someone I don’t always find easy opened up about the concerns they had for their children.  Suddenly my internal judgement and my discomfort dissolved as I saw clearly this person’s love for their children.  It was a bit like tumbling to the ground – I saw what joined us, what made us the same.  That thing was love.  We stand on the same ground.  If we let her, Love will take us deeper.

Think of a situation in the world which you may not understand or know much about, but you know that people are suffering.  Unfortunately, there are many to choose from.  Often the people we see on the television news or in pictures in newspapers are nameless, but even if we know their names it can feel impossible to connect with them.  Just for a moment think about the nameless person or people and remember that they are someone’s child.  Maybe they are someone’s sister, or brother; someone’s mother or father; someone’s friend.  Their situation – their suffering – is having an impact on a web of people who may well be in the same danger.  The love they have for each other is real, and it is the same love that you have for that web of people that surround you.  They and we are human, and the love that they and we give and receive connects us.  If we let her, Love will take us wider.

If we let her, Love will connect us with the living creatures on land, sea and sky; with the trees and plants; with the very elements of the earth.  Because we are all made from the same stardust. Our likeness draws us together, whilst also generating the energy that allows our universe to keep expanding.  Love anchors us and allows us to grow.

For me the journey in contemplation is answering the call to Love.  Tuning into a different spiritual wavelength in order to experience and pass on this positive force which is God.  It involves: slowing down; letting go of the things that distract; being intentional; recognising love at work in places I don’t expect to find it.  Surely this is the key to life: surely this is the Way. And the Truth.  And the Life.  Because Love is the answer: the answer to my frustrations, my fears, my disappointments, my failures, my desires.  Sometimes the road that it takes me on is hard: it looks like the road of loss, deprivation and failure.  Love doesn’t take away pain or darkness: it enables the suffering to transform us and it never lets us go. 

Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Unsplash
 

Winter

 

In the Winter of life

I turn my face to the sun

And feel its warmth

On my skin

 

The breeze is gentle

And whispers of a world

Unknown

 

I sense infinity

Waiting on the edges

 

I feel the pull

But there is no rush

 

“Rest a while.”

 

My soul stills within me

As love takes my hand

And leads me on.

 

 

Sermon: Matthew 4:1-11

Theme: Lent

About this:

This talk is from this time last year.  It ponders what the wilderness is and how God meets us there.  As Lent approaches I find it helpful to refocus, and remind myself what Lent is about.  If you’re also thinking about how to ‘use’ Lent I hope these words will be helpful.

Here’s a link to the main Bible passage:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+4%3A+1-11&version=NRSVUE

 

Last Sunday morning we were on the mountain – with Moses, waiting in the cloud, and with Jesus being transfigured.  This week we find ourselves in a very different place – in the wilderness or the desert.  Whilst I was thinking about what to say this Sunday lots of things came to my mind: my prayer is that God will pull some clarity out of all the thoughts bouncing around in my head and that he will speak to you out of what is said.

One verse that seems pertinent as we look at this passage is 1 John 2:6: Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.  Jesus calls us to follow him as we begin Lent I believe the challenge is to follow him into the wilderness.

I am aware that some of us may feel that we are already in the metaphorical wilderness.  Life gives us these experiences and, even if we are not there at the moment, I imagine that we can all think back to times in our lives which have felt like the wilderness, or maybe like a desert.  What does it feel like to be in this place?  A little lost; a sense of God’s absence rather than his presence; things feel hard or parched; there is a lack of comfort; a lack of sustenance; we feel exposed, alone, bereft.

The wilderness is not an easy place to be.  If you are in that place at the moment I hope that I can offer you some encouragement. 

We read in verse one of our passage: Then Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness.  The first thing we need to recognise in our wilderness experiences is that God leads us there.  You’re not there because you did something wrong – God is not punishing you.  He has led you to the wilderness for a reason.

In the wilderness it can feel like God is not with us but that is not true.  That is the whispering lie of the ‘devil’ who wants you to believe that God, who is love, has abandoned you.  It is simply not true.  We know from the stories we find in the Bible that God meets his people in the desert; in the wilderness.

When the Israelites wandered through the desert for 40 years God was with them and provided for them.  But that is not the story that caught my attention this time.  I came across the story of Hagar in Genesis 16.  After becoming pregnant with Abram’s child she runs away from Abram’s wife Sarah into the desert.  When you think about the human dynamics of this story it is MESSY:  Hagar was an Egyptian slave running away from her Jewish mistress whilst pregnant with her Jewish master’s child.  When she is in the desert God finds her and speaks to her.  And what drew me to this story is the name that Hagar gives to God – ‘the God who sees me’.  If you’re currently in a desert place, know this: God sees you – he has not turned his back on you.

In Hosea (chapter 2) as God speaks to his people he equates them with an adulterous wife and his words are harsh – there is no getting away from that. But then in verse 14 God says: So I am going to take her into the desert again; there I will win her back with words of love.  In another version it says: there I will speak to her tenderly.  What does that say to me?  It says that God leads us into those desert places we experience because he wants to speak words of love to us. 

You see, there is something about a desert, or a wilderness.  Something that strips everything else away.  We are vulnerable there.  We find ourselves ‘naked’ with nowhere to hide.  It’s a place where we drop all our pretences.  It’s a raw place.  And, hang on a minute – our nakedness doesn’t bother God.  Back in the Garden of Eden we were naked and we lived that heavenly life with God – Adam and Eve only hid, only wore clothes, after they had eaten the fruit of the tree of knowledge.

So, when we are in this desert place – this vulnerable place – we are in a place where God can reach us.  The Desert fathers and mothers purposely went into the desert to do internal spiritual work – to find their true selves.  When we find ourselves in our metaphorical desert, can we acknowledge where we are and have honest conversations with God?  Can we use that open, vulnerable place to let God speak to us more deeply?  God is speaking those words of love to us in the desert – can we listen deeply and let his love reach right down into our emptiness?

Desert experiences are hard – no one is denying that – but God is present: talk to him.  God finds people in their deserts.  Teaches people in their deserts.  Deserts strip us of our defences, so it is just us and God.  It can feel scary but, God is there – he sees us, and he speaks tenderly to us.

Back to today’s passage: Jesus in the desert.  Jesus, who we should remember is 100% human, is led into the desert by the spirit and spends forty days and forty nights fasting.  I find it interesting that in the accounts of Jesus’ wilderness experience the focus is on him being tested by Satan.  But this test only happened after Jesus had been in the wilderness fasting for those forty days and forty nights.  Fasting for that sustained period is something beyond me, but in preparing for the tests I feel that Jesus must have drawn close to God.  Not in a ‘mountaintop’ way: sometimes when we are suffering that sense of God’s presence is just as real.  We unite with God in pain as well as joy.  In the suffering that Jesus was going through because of his fasting he was 100% focused on God – his suffering led him towards God not away from him.

Here is another lesson for us.  Sometimes we let our suffering come like a wedge between us and God – can we turn our suffering into that honest conversation we have just been talking about so that our suffering can draw us closer to God? 

As we enter this season of Lent how are we marking it?  Have we given up chocolate, or alcohol, or Facebook?  Or have we taken something up?  Whatever we have chosen to do, or if we have chosen to do nothing, is it worth pausing and thinking: is that change going to bring me closer to God?  It’s something that I am mulling over myself: how do I use this time of Lent to refocus on my God?  That is really what this passage is all about.

To quote NT Wright: These readings are not about ‘temptation’ so much as about true worship.  Jesus recognised his temptations as distractions from worshipping and trusting the one true God.

We need to be careful how we think about these temptations that Jesus faces.  It’s important to recognise that the things that Jesus is tempted by are not wholly bad.  He had been fasting for forty days and forty nights – in the Message version of the Bible it says ‘he was famished’ – so is turning stones into bread such a bad idea?!  The point is not that what Jesus is tempted to is evil, the point is that each of the temptations is a distraction from whole-heartedly loving and trusting God.  Turning stones into bread, proving God’s love by being caught, gaining glory and possessions – these are not evil in and of themselves but they are all pointless if they take Jesus’ focus (his love, his trust, his listening ear) away from God.  All that time alone with God in the desert has enabled Jesus to tune into God and he does not want any distraction from that. 

To quote NT Wright again: Every moment, God calls us to know, love and worship him, and thereby celebrate our genuine humanity, and reflect his image in the world.  Temptations lure us to turn away from that privilege and invitation, to lower our gaze, shorten our sights, and settle for second best or worse.  Sin, like a misfired arrow, drops short of the call to true humanness; to bearing and reflecting God’s image.

When I ponder this I am challenged to think about what my temptations really are: what are the things that distract me from God?  One example for me is staying up watching (or re-watching) tv programmes. Watching TV is not bad in and of itself, but – for me – it is a sometimes a distraction.

At the beginning of Lent, what is causing us to ‘miss the mark’ – to miss out on being beautifully human and reflecting God’s image?  How can we reflect the light if we’re not facing the light?  When our attention is called elsewhere we are ‘lowering our gaze, shortening our sights, settling for second best or worse’.  Maybe we need to reconsider what we choose to give up or take up during this season of Lent.

As I’ve reflected on this passage it’s felt like the temptations that the devil brings to Jesus are like a pestering.  Like he’s prodding Jesus; needling him; saying – stop looking at God, look over here.  It makes me think of the noise in my head when I try to be still with God – all the things that crowd in to distract me.  And I want to have the words that Jesus had to still that noise and focus on God.  But not just that.  I also want the words to stop hatred and bring love, the words to ease despair and bring hope, the words to bring joy to places of sadness…  Because God is not just to do with being still but to do with connecting and loving and bringing peace and joy and patience and kindness.  That is the genuine humanity NT Wright is talking about – that is the image of God being reflected.

So, when it comes to what we give up, or take up, for Lent, what do we do?  These words jumped off the page for me yesterday as I read my Lent book:  it all depends on fasting from unkindness and choosing justice.  Maybe for Lent we need to take up kindness as a spiritual practise – what would that look like?

This interpretation of Isaiah 58: 9-11 is also worth pondering: If you remove from your midst oppression, false accusation and malicious speech, if you bestow your bread on the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted, then light shall rise for you in the darkness… and God will guide you always and give you relief in desert places.  There’s the relief in the desert, the angels.  There’s the fasting, the kind of giving up that God desires of us.  And can I just say that if kindness is something you want to focus on during Lent, remember to be kind to yourself.  This is not about punishing ourselves – it is about drawing near to God and God loves you.  Sometimes being kind to ourselves is the kindness that is needed the most.

The words Jesus uses to refute the devil come from Deuteronomy, with two of his answers coming from Deuteronomy 6 which also includes:  Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one.  Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.  Jesus was in the wilderness practising this command – practising loving, trusting, listening to God; the devil came to tempt him – to try and pull his attention away from God; Jesus had the words to refute him; the devil left.  And then: suddenly angels came and waited on him. I honestly don’t see why angels won’t come and wait on us in our deserts but, as wonderful as that would be, that is not our motive.

Our motivation is to love God with our whole being and to reflect his likeness into our broken world.  To bring light and love into the world.  As we set out on the wilderness journey of Lent let us remember that we are following in Jesus footsteps and let us do all we can to keep our eyes set on him so that we can reflect his love and light into our broken world.

                                                Photo by David McLenachan on Unsplash